Three years ago, I was miserable. I didn’t think I’d ever know what happiness felt like again. At the rate things were going, I just assumed I’d keel over at an early age from either a heart attack or an…
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Don’t Feed the Monkey
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Allow me to introduce you to an acquaintance of mine. This is Monkey Mind, or as I call him because I know him so well, MM. MM is a complete and total asshole. Now, you may think that’s a bit…
Communicatus Neurosititis
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Sprawled on the massage table, I was doing my best to relax and clear my mind. It worked. For about 10 minutes. After that, I started thinking about how I communicate with other people. Ok, I was obsessing about it.…
Flashbacks
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You don’t want to be inside this head right now. It is a dark, dark place, full of bad memories that won’t go away. They come at me, out of nowhere. Flashbacks that I can’t control and that I don’t…
Head vs. Heart
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Head: So, you ready to talk about this yet? Heart: What’s there to talk about? I haven’t changed my mind. Head: Seriously? How many times do you have to hear “Move on. This isn’t going to work.” before you actually…
Torn
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As Gabrielle started to wake, flashes of her dreams came back to her. Images of what her brain had tried to process overnight. She couldn’t make out everything. A face. A landscape. If the dreams had been particularly interesting, she…
Blinded
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one is blinded by fear and sadness the other by love and hope neither sees the pain they cause the sadness the loneliness the apprehension all of it lost in their own selfish hazes one dwells in the past…
Tough Love
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There’s something I’ve been struggling with for awhile now. Tough love. When do you give it? How do you give it? Should you give it? There’s a line in Moonstruck that always plays in my head when I feel like…
Baggage
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Gabrielle stared out the window at the gloomy, gray sky and felt an overwhelming sense of…too much. Depression. Fear. Suffocation. Rain streamed down from the sky, almost as if it was sobbing. She somehow felt that was appropriate today. She…
Absent
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Neither of them was looking for a relationship when they met. Gabrielle was coming out of a toxic situation that lasted a few years too many. Lucy was still dealing with her own personal losses. They just started talking and…