Sometimes, all it takes to turn my day around are a few words from her. Most of the time, it doesn’t really even matter what those words are. Just knowing she is there supporting me, loving me, watching out for me, that’s what makes me smile. Lucy has had that affect on me from the beginning, even before we really knew each other well.
Today had been one of those days. Demand upon demand, annoyances, fatigue. I felt like screaming or crawling into a hole and sleeping until the world stopped being so disappointing. I had been through so many days like this in the last five years. For four of those years, I had no escape. I had no Lucy. There were days where I thought I would crack and end up in a million pieces on the floor, with nobody bothering to sweep me up.
One of the many things I love about Lucy is that she knows I’m a little cracked. She understands me and what I’ve been through. But every day, she manages to mend another little crack in my shell. She doesn’t know she’s doing it most of the time. It’s just the way she talks to me, looks at me, protects me.
Lucy has made me feel loved and appreciated again, something I haven’t felt in a very long time. Before her, I was broken and lost. I had begun picking up the pieces of my life and was trying to find my way back to the path I had drifted from. I felt alone and unsteady. Her presence has helped me feel more at ease with where I’m going. I don’t feel as broken. When a message arrives from her, all the irritations of the day melt away. None of it matters anymore. With Lucy in my life, I’m feeling whole again.