Personal Narrative

Communicatus Neurosititis

Sprawled on the massage table, I was doing my best to relax and clear my mind. It worked. For about 10 minutes. After that, I started thinking about how I communicate with other people. Ok, I was obsessing about it.…

Flashbacks

You don’t want to be inside this head right now. It is a dark, dark place, full of bad memories that won’t go away. They come at me, out of nowhere. Flashbacks that I can’t control and that I don’t…

Head vs. Heart

Head: So, you ready to talk about this yet? Heart: What’s there to talk about? I haven’t changed my mind. Head: Seriously? How many times do you have to hear “Move on. This isn’t going to work.” before you actually…

Trigger

Walking across the threshold, I had no idea I’d be so overcome with emotions. I actually had to stop and compose myself before going any further. It had been about six years since I had stepped foot in a place…

Engraved

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The first full day I had to myself after my ex moved out, I celebrated. Feeling like a huge weight had been lifted off of me, I made myself a nice dinner and opened an ’85 Cabernet that had been…

Replacements

The strangest events can trigger a memory or send you spiraling back into your past, where you are forced to confront ghosts you’d rather ignore. I left my sunglasses at a friend’s home the other evening. It wasn’t until the…

Knick Knacks

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Cleaning and reorganizing the garage over the weekend, I came across several boxes of items I had almost forgotten about. With each unpacked layer, I came across wonderful surprises. Some items brought laughter. Others brought tears and bittersweet feelings. Each…

Weakness

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You’d been on my mind a lot. I’m not sure why. Maybe it was the weather. Maybe it was the flu I was fighting. Certain things trigger these thoughts of you without warning. Some days I can easily push them…

Out With the Old…

I’ve been spending a lot of time purging lately. Purging the house and garage of my ex’s things and of the items I no longer want or need. Most of it was acquired during our time together and I don’t…